I Think I'm Cuckoo

Well, how should I begin this.

I think babbling to other people when I dont know what is going to come out of my mouth or I cant even control myself or my speech or I just don't know what am I talking about.

Its scary.

I think I'm going cuckoo.

When did all this begin? I suspect it must be the fever on the first day of 2010. Or maybe I have lost my equilibrium.

One big event is finally over, thank god. But not for the traffic jam. Don't bother reading this post....if you would still want to continue. You have been warned. It will be a cluster of babble that I do not know where to throw it. But it has to go out of the system.

Going to work and getting stuck in traffic everyday for one hour is bad enough, and NOW no matter which hour u go out, 7am, 715, 730 and the later would be worst. You will still take about one and a half hour or more. Highway or without highway. Chinese New Year just get people going crazy and they just come out and occupy the whole road. There are a few occassions besides Chinese New Year, first 2 weeks of school reopen and also during the puasa month.

I am so tired, that I am getting not enough sleep. And every morning I wake up feeling so alive to teach and bloody traffic just eat up all of it. I am tired of talking so much and teach for so many hours. It is so tiring that my voice is fading away.

Am agitated, I feel like slapping anybody I see. I don't feel like talking to anybody but I also feel like talking to somebody. I am afraid to talk to anybody coz I can't seem to stop complaining. I am bloody frusfrated and I wish I could just runaway somewhere. My bones are so tired and painful and my nose is running, and yet the body still have to work. What nonsense.

I was stuck in a jam and lost in PJ for 2 and the half hour I was driving and driving aimlessly in the pouring rain on Friday. Everytime I see a line of cars, I turned to another junction even though I do not know where it leads me. Doctors appointment have to be cancelled.

I hate last minute changes. I hate sitting at the back of the stage for too long hours. I hate the walkie talkie on my ears, I could feel myself half deaf soon. I AM SO ANGRY!!

I drove aimlessly on Saturday, could not decide where to go. Traffic jam everywhere, I cant go home, I dont want to go to KJ and I decided to drive up to Damansara and I U turned back to KJ after seeing the traffic and the pouring rain. Strange, one part of the town is raining and the other is not. At the end, I am just parked right outside of a futsal place talking on the phone. It was a relieve to hear my friend's voice. I feel better. And brother soon arrived.

All the weekend plans, I am too tired to execute, lucky that it got cancelled. I am so bored on a Sunday, but the thought of the sea of people and cars and TRAFFIC JAM. I am so phobic over it that I would call my bro to watch movie and then message not coming after 5 minutes.

My mind is so fickle. What is happening? I feel lost. Anxiety. Depression?

I have been heaving deep sigh for many days. Has the moon gone off tangent? Or have I?

I need to rest.

I think I am just not well.

More sleep should shift my balance back.

Breath it all out, Heave it all out in the sigh.

All out.

Out.

Fatique Week with Lil Explosions

Well, it is February already. How time flies eh? Let's talk bout the lil explosions for this week :) I have finally got my tickets to Kings Of Convenience Live in KL !! They will be here on Mac 21st performing at Wisma Bentley and tickets are going by RM132 for pre sale, for those who bought Junk Magazine you can get a discount at RM112 with the voucher and those buying at the door it is RM150.



Well who are they? For those who love acoustic sound with good harmonies. It is a MUST to hear them!! Thanks to Grace who have introduce them to me way back then in 2005 I think, been loving their music since then. I never expect they would come here and Malaysians have heard of them, not a mainstream band but awesome music!

I just hope nothing that will happen and the tour got cancelled. *crossing my fingers*

One week have passed in school, getting busier everyday. I am getting more and more exhausted, it is only the first month of the year that I started working. Went to see a doc to check on my knees and got myself some bone cracking session and physiology session as well. The pain has lessen. Learnt something about flat foot. I always thought that individuals are born with it. Well, WRONG! If you do not take care of what kinda shoes your feet wears, eventually you will develop flat foot. Like me. Mine is just about to collapse, so precaution will be taken now. When your foot is flat you will get all kinda aches on the knees, ankle and some even the back.
Hope these heals soon, am only 27 and knees are already like an old lady a lil. Crap.


At least this weekend was a lil refreshing. Getting the tickets and finally found a bag that I like. Been hunting since last year. I am fussy on shopping, which is good at some point. I am less of a shopaholic. Had a good yam cha session after work on Friday with Sasha before meeting my family. Movie marathon on japanese drama, tai you no sekitsu, 7 hours straight. Then, finally dinner with parents and Sunday, taught a lil and then shopping in One U! This is luxury.

Hence, today at work was a drag. I cant even open my eyes. Though the music is awesome. Rock opera is the theme of this year concert featuring the students in school.

Going to chill on youtube now, pick up some japanese before sleeping :)