Superficial

This year has passed so fast, in a blink of an eye. Almost everyday is fully marked with events. Memories made to be kept. Bonds formed and also bonds disconnected.

Sometimes I wonder how superficial these bonds are or rather I see things a lil simple and naive. I still could not understand how can individuals come into your life and bonded so fine. Shared many and live through many joys and pains. When they choose to leave, they just disconnect so abruptly. Shut you off their life as they move to other phases. Literally, just ...disconnect.

It makes you wonder what have happened in the previous time. Those moments that are formed. We weren't really friends ? It was just an acquaintance? Maybe I have just imagined those bonds. They never really there. It was loneliness. Having company makes you delusional and think that friendship is formed. In fact, it is just acquaintanceship. Or perhaps, some friendship has an expiry date. When it is the end, it is just the end. Like how seasons changes on earth.

Yet...
It hurts..

Perhaps next time I will not be such a fool. Acquaintance is formed instantly. Friends,it takes a while to know if they fall to that category. They could be just parasites and user living off you. Living off your time.

Bitter I may sound,
I forgive...
Will move on with the pain...
For I believe will heal with time..
And spend more hours with those dear ones and friends that are worthwhile, that will stay together with me throughout my life.
Not time wasters who eats my precious moments and heart..

Spirit of Adventure

Wednesday seems to be THE night off weekly for this year, I would try my best to make it as empty or fill it with hanging out with my friends.

Yesterday, was spent with Neets, Dino and Wannie. It has been quite some time since I last saw them, except for Neet where we have coffee together the previous week. Dinner at Vietnam Kitchen, not too bad. The tofu was not fantastic in the set meal, the rest are all right, still taste rather Chinese.

My stomach have been killing me since Monday night. I have no idea why. Even till this morning. I swear I could just sleep on the toilet bowl of my school toilet. There is so much of wind inside. It all started on my gluttony on Monday, with the 'rojak' way of stuffing things in my stomach. I had Siam Belacan Fried Rice, a few bites of Baked Cheese Seafood and Carbonara, topping it up with two cups of teh tarik and a bottle of beer. It got me for indigestion for the night. Felt sick on Tuesday morning that I have to take MC which I think it is food poisoning or too much tea. My whole body felt limp and wind in the stomach. Doesnt seem to have much appetite. arrgghh..hate to be sick esp not knowing what's wrong. Will head to the doc if it persists.

Despite all the mumbo jumbo in the body, I saw a touching movie yesterday night with the babes. 'Up'. The animation was brilliant in terms of the story line. In the first half hour or less, they sum up a couple's life since childhood till old age, until the wife passes on. Then, the next part goes into the next chapter of the husband's life. A wonderful movie about cycle of life, death, love, courage and adventure. He met this cute lil boy Russel, and along with other companions. Sometimes in life, you have a dream and you get so frusfrated that it did not come true. And when you finally find it, ordinary as it can be. It is not the dream you had that makes life so sweet, it is the people and events you meet along the way that makes it so awesome! The path that you were directed into unconsciously that has more gems in it than the one you dream of walking upon. Up is about that or maybe much more. When you finally close the past chapters, you will be able to venture on to the new ones. That is also if you could let go of everything to see what you have at present. These are simple ways to live life, sometimes as adults we forget through the material world and seas of work, being rigid and grumpy.

My favourite part of the movie is the pictures in the scrape book (The Adventure Book). Lovely moments.Besides, Russel is entertaining and the script is clever as well as funny besides the touching moments which are most often unspoken.

Signing off for the day :)

School Holidays

Among the few weeks after FAME production, this is my most hyper day of all. I was all perked up the whole day, I feel as if I could jump up and touch the sky soon. School holidays are finally here! The H1N1 cases has led the primary students to be off from school. The whole week was almost dream like and I am so lethargic. Thought they are no classes, we still have to train students for the Merdeka assembly.

I have been placed to help with the dance assemble, mostly being the sound woman on board. They are rehearsing the silat style with other martial arts form, all fused together to form the warrior dance. CPAC did a fantastic item again this assembly, very unusual and fresh sound. The rain stick and the di zi (chinese flute) and a very different kind of playing from the recorder. I get goosebumps when I hear it. It was a blend of malay, chinese and indian folk songs all mashed together in this instrumental piece. BEAUTIFUL. No other words to describe it.

I have a new discovery in Sunway Pyramid, I have finally found the perfect spot to have my meals (which does not cost too much) and free wifi as well. Nice and cosy. I would rather pay RM12 for a plate of noodles than a cup of starbucks coffee. Definitely the more filling food. Wong Kok Char Chan Teng. The perfect place, the next time I will order my milk tea and some other toast which are quite fabulous here as well.

Tomorrow is also another exciting day! I will be flying off to Bangkok! After 4 years, I am finally returning again. Hopefully I could meet up with Bow, the friend from our previous study trip. It is just all so exciting. Then, I am going to be entertained by Hui and CK, the comedy duo. Going to be laughing my ass off when they start their usual tease. Muahhahaha..cant wait! Have to leave for work now. Last session for the week and am free! AYayayyayyaayay!!

One Thing To Another

Last week was a dread, even from Monday itself. The events just keep coming and coming. One after another. After a long night on Friday, I have to crawl out of bed at 8 plus for another session on Saturday. Work ended at 5pm. Finally, I could not wait to get back home and hit the sack. Might even wake up later for dinner. I am exhausted. In need of a hanger to lift my body up.

As I reached the traffic light near Summit, I was greeted by a long queue of cars. Bloody hell, jam on a Sat at that kinda hour. Crap. It was due to the road blocks happening around KL. Annoying. I decided to detour down to KESAS highway, try my luck if my cousins are around.

Luckily they were. It was so good to see them. Poor SY is sick, hope she feels more high spirited and she could see the path she is heading much sooner. Reached her place, chatter awhile and as usual TY bed of wonders, and i mean literally the bed. Once you lie upon it, you will fall into deep slumber. Slept till 9pm without realising I was already very hungry. Went out for dinner and pasar malam in Bolton. Still a bit disoriented from the week. Pan Mee was refreshing. Sui Kau was not the most fantastic but still nice. Reached home at about 11. Trapped in front of the tv watching my cousin play Resident Evil 4 till 2am. Those zombies are quite entertaining and much violence as well. Head cutting and shooting and killing. Felt like I was watching a horror flick , with exception, it is one that lasted for more than 2 hours and the movement of the characters are partially controlled by us.

Sunday morning did not start so great. Woke up with period pain that lasted for 2 hours plus. I was sitting in the toilet till my butt aches. Finally, manage to fall asleep on my cousin's parquet floor. Initial plan for the day was to buy books in Chambers Music, but due to the fear of jam, we skipped it and went to order cake for my cousin only. Came back and got stuck with Super Mario game on PS2 till dinner time, played till my thumb hurts. And another chapter of Resident Evil 4 game before zzzzzzz time.

Dinner was fantastic, 'lam yu chicken' with 'choi kon soup', steamed egg and vegetables. Nice home cooked food. Thank you Uncle Wong!

Monday did not seem so tired like the last. All recharged, hopefully the battery will last till the end of this week. Cant wait to catch the Butoh Performance this Saturday at the Annexe, Central Market.

Psycho Drivers

Malaysian drivers can be such a pain in the ass! Car indicators are almost non existent in their vocabulary. Some morning are so beautiful, but some kiasu drivers or just because they are having a bad mood, they pissed others off with their horrible driving. Hello? Get a life.

This week, the planetary influences above must have gone wrong causing such crazy vibes, especially among motorcyclist. They really look like drunken flies on the road. Sometimes, cars try their best to make way for you or not to knock you down by your GT sport kinda stunts you do on the road. However, advantage are being taken by being the king of the road. You zoom in and out of the lanes, drive off lanes where you are not suppose to be on. Make U-turns at the most awkward side of the road. And the best part is, honk at drivers to make way for you.

Well, those are the motorcyclist. Let's talk about car drivers, especially those with four wheels. Just because your vehicle is big, I know we can see you. BUT we still cannot read whether you need to change lane. So aunty uncle sis bro sekalian. Please use the indicator. And also stop being kiasu, when someone place an indicator to come out, stop speeding up and be such an ass. Have some courtesy to allow drivers to cut lane if they have put the indicator lights. Or else you will start training more idiots to not put on the indicator because every time they do that, no drivers allowed them to cut in. And next, QUEUE up. Stop cutting line. Teachers or parents did not teach is it?! Forgive my manglish.

Next, it is the lorry and the bus. Just because you are the giants of the roads and I know you know that others are afraid of you. This doesnt mean you can come out of the lane by putting a one second indicator light alert. It means, flash signal and turn out straight without checking if there is a car beside you or coming on. That's why there are so many accidents on the highway. People going at 110km/j on the road wont be able to jam break in time for you!

Sigh...Well, the highlight of the story is my friend:

She was at the toll, cutting into the lane to pay toll, the driver A from the back refused to give way. However, the whole area is rather jam up, if my friend does not move first, driver A would still not able to go through. So, finally, my friend manage to get into the line and suddenly she heard a loud thump on the roof of her car. A metal piece bounced off and knocked the in front. She saw from the front mirror of the hand of the culprit sliding back into the car. Driver A got so kiasu and mad that he threw an object at my friend's car. She was so angry and got out of the car. The Driver A has change course to another lane. I admire my friend's bravery. She went and knocked at the mirror but the driver ignored and shoo-ed her away. She went right in front and he was just looking else where. She got more furious and went beside his mirror and knocked again at the mirror. Still ignoring her, she just swears and raised a finger at him.

Check out how dangerous it is to drive in KL sometimes. You are more likely to die of a heart attack first than an accident, with such drivers on the road that are out to piss you off.

Well, not everybody is an asshole on the road. They are some very polite and courteous driver still existing. So, no offence. Just your luck and I wish you all the patience for all KL drivers!

Clementine

All my years from childhood until adult, The children song Clementine has never came across as such a tragic story. I have just tormented the day of the 7 year old classes today after explaining the story of the Clementine song. There was a moment of silent and all eyes were looking at me. I laughed a bit and changed the topic to clear off the solemn mist.

The only line that most people will know best is 'Oh my darling, oh my darling, oh my darling Clementine, You are lost and gone forever, something something... Clementine. Mostly partial memory.

Melodically it sounded sweet but lyrically speaks of a tragic story. It even describe how poor clementine is gasping for air underwater.

In a cavern, in a canyon,
Excavating for a mine
Dwelt a miner forty niner,
And his darling Clementine.

Oh my darling, oh my darling,
Oh my darling, Clementine!
Thou art lost and gone forever
Dreadful sorry, Clementine

Light she was and like a fairy,
And her shoes were number nine,
Herring boxes, without topses,
Sandals were for Clementine.

chorus **

Drove she ducklings to the water
Ev'ry morning just at nine,
Hit her foot against a splinter,
Fell into the foaming brine.

chorus**

Ruby lips above the water,
Blowing bubbles, soft and fine,
But, alas, I was no swimmer,
So I lost my Clementine.

Well, luckily these few verses only stopped there in that music sheet. I have found another more version online for scouts/children which continues the tragic story (as below)

Then the miner, forty-niner
Soon began to peak and pine
Thought he oughta join his daughter
Now he's with his Clementine

Chorus**

There's a churchyard on the hillside
Where the flowers grow and twine
There grow roses, mongst the posies
Fertilized by Clementine

Chorus **

In my dreams she still doth haunt me
Robed in garments soaked in brine
Though in life I used to hug her
Now she's dead, I draw the line

Now you kids [or Scouts] may learn the moral
Of this little tale of mine,
Artifical respiration
Would have saved my Clementine

Hahaha, first the father commit suicide, then flower beds fertilized by Clementine body, then the ghostly appearance of Clementine. My my.... @,@''' *sweats*

That's the highlight of the day :) The moral of the story is, read the lyrics of your lesson first before teaching, even if the genre is children song. It could be more tragic than your regular pop song. LOL!

Childhood Games

Once upon today, I came across something I used to play in class when teachers are away for meeting or elsewhere or before examination just to pass time. I was just sitting in for my colleague today for one of the classes and the kids were noisy but not random chatter. Busy with their own games. The first game I came across was :

B-I-N-G-O , nope...not the song about the dog and the farmer. Look at the picture above. We draw a box with 5 columns and rows. Fill it up with number from 1-25, randomly. This game is played by 2 or more people. Each person will take turns to call out the number and then the number will be strike out. Once any rows diagonally, up or down which has 5 numbers being circled they can cross out the whole row and one letter from the word BINGO. Whoever who finish crossing out the word BINGO first is the winner.


Then, I started to walk off to another table to see what the bunch of students is doing. They were doing a mini hand prediction game. First, they outline a friend's palm on the paper. Each finger is being separated into a few section. The thumb is where you list your favourite number, the index finger you write the 3 character that you like in your husband/wife. The middle finger, you write 3 type of cars that you like. The ring finger is where you write 3 types of house you would like to owe and the pinky finger you write three colours that you write. In the middle of the palm is the type of life that you will live. P/M/R (Poor, Middle, Rich).

Then, the facilitator of the game will keep drawing strokes like this |||||||||||||....until the player says STOP! whenever he/she likes. The number of strokes being drawn will be used to count. For instance, if there are ten strokes being drawn then they will countdown each section, the letter at number ten will be cross out. Once a finger has only 1 more letter left, it will be abandoned for the it is being predicted. The last section to count is the PMR, which is counted by its own. It is a bit confusing but it would be easier to show you how to play it. Hahah :).Would sound like a ridiculous game for an adult but rather enjoyable as a kid, just like those random psychology quizzes we take.

And the champion of games in the class is CHESS! Yes, ordinary board game indeed. But the special part about this two boys are, the chess board is hand drawn due to lack of resources. Very Impressive :)
The ponds were originally drawn as picture images, then it was reverted to fonts because they were confused with their own drawings.

Later on, they had another argument on where the Black King and White King is suppose to be placed in the initial position. Well, White King on white box and Black King on black box after I helped them to search on the Internet. However, it was nobody's fault, it was the board that they drew. They used it the wrong side or the boxes are drawn wrongly somehow. Anyway, I am still very impress with the chess set, a hand drawn one :) The con is, you will get cheeky friends who come to your table and Huff puff, blows all the pond away and the game is disrupted.