3 Years Ago

I came upon this post when I am surfing through Von's site, thought it's really interesting.Here's my reflection. Cant believe 3 years has passed...


3 YEARS AGO TODAY

How old were you?:
20

What grade year were you in?:
Year 1 Sem 1

Where did you go to school?
Monash University

Where did you work?:
Still a student

Where did you live?:
In the University's HOstel, the infamous A404

How was your hair style?:
Long hair, always tied up..I'm quite a geek. Cant remember if i had any highlights on my hair or dyed it before i went to uni.

Did you wear braces?
haha..nopes.

Did you wear glasses?
All the time, unless for certain occasions then i would switch to contact lens. Glasses are still most comfy.

Who was your best friend?:
Hmm..I have a lots of best friend and sisters, I don't like the idea that there is only one best friend in your life.Dont think it exists and it turns you quite possessive too.

Who was your celebrity crush?:
Lee HOm! not a celebrity crush, my inspiration.

Who was your regular-person crush?:
Not going to reveal, those that know me and remember me 3 yrs ago will know.

How many tattoos did you have?
Nopes

How many piercings did you have?:
5 piercing, 3 on the right ear and 2 on the left

What was your favorite band/group?:
Ermm...quite a number,Silverchair, garbage, smashing pumpkins, blur.....

What was your worst fear?:
Not being able to live my dream

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
nopes

Had you gotten drunk/high yet?:
Nopes, Dun like the hangover feeling..so I dun intend to

Had you been to a real party yet?
Real party? I would say the real party is when all your friends are there and you have a blast

Had your heart broken?:
Hmm...unrequitted love mostly. Do you consider that?

Had broken someones heart?
If unrequitted love is considered


HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!

How old are you?:
23

Where do you go to school?:
No more school, I do wish I could take up some music course soon.

Where do you work?:
Work in a music school now, doing admin & marketing, and teach piano as well.

Where do you live?:
I call it Jam Land, the Summit area side for now.

How is your hair style?
Short like a boy, that's what Bei Yan told me..hahaha :P

Do you have braces?:
Still dont..dont need it.

Do you wear glasses?:

My principle 3 years ago still remains. Glasses are most comfy, Lenses are for certain days.

Who is your best friend?:
STill remains 3 years ago, the number of best friends i have met these 3 years have increased.

Still talk to any of your old friends?:
Lol..of course, do miss them, try to catch up whenever I can. THough its not like back in high school, we meet everyday ! :D

Who is your celebrity crush?:
Still Lee Hom, and like I say...my inspiration. But I have added three more in my list, Jay Zhou and David Tao and Shin

How many piercings now?
four, two on my right ear are closing up...

How many tattoos?:
Not a single one yet

What is your biggest fear?:
Not living the dream and life i want

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?:
Yeah, just a few puffs out of a dare and a puff of tobacco...ahhaha. NOt very tasty at all. Hate it still.

Have you gotten drunk or high?:
HAhahha..nopes. Don't intend to. Same thing, i dun like hangovers

Have you been to a real party?:
What's the definition of real party?

Has your heart been broken?:
Yeah I guess, from unrequitted love

Have you broken someones heart?:
YEah. Answered this earlier le. It's still the same 3 years later


TADAAA...The end. :)

The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift

Yesterday, I went to Pyramid to catch Tokyo Drift with Sasha this evening, right after my work. Has pizza in Pizza Hut..kinda miss the pizza there, havent had that for a while. Then, the show began at 6.40 pm. There is a guy sitting in front of my Sasha's seat which I think he is Bernard. Hmm..but I did not bother to call him, was just too lazy.

Tokyo Drift. Its the 3rd Fast n Furious. None of the old cast is in there except for a cameo at the end for one of the old cast. So basically, the movie take place in Japan mostly. When the lead guy (Sean) entered Tokyo's underground race group, ahh..the scene...kind of get on my nerves after a while. What's with the slow camera motion that zooms in on boobs, skirts accidently lift up and the fragmentation of women's body in the show? Sounds like a feminist huh? It happens in most movies but its just a bit too much in this one. I just felt like women in that show are just dolls for parades. And they are pretty dolled up too. In Tokyo style, reminds me of those found in Harajuku streets


Am not exactly a big fan of cars, I do like the Drift Technique used in car racing. Sasha pointed out to me the cameo appearance of Japan's REAL Drift King in the movie. He has a short cameo appearance as the 'ah pek' fishing by the port where Sean, Han and the rest of the gang is practicing the drift technique. I just call it cool cornering skills. The car would swerve so fast at the corner that it just drifts across the corner, tilting the car slightly sideways. This show reminds me of Initial D a lot. Maybe its because one of the scene (which i guess) is filmed at the same mountain. The mountain with zig-zag corner road used to race and drift technique is required. Here's a pic (Credits to Drift Club)i found on the web about Drift Technique.


Well, as for the storyline, you have to catch the show and watch it yourself. Am more impress with the drift tech in this show than the cars. hahhaha...but without the cars and its high tech engine, ya cant really perform the drift tech nicely. I am an idiot about cars and engines. So, I will leave this topic for now.

Ooo yeah, after the movie , went over to Tian Wen's place to check out the room. Satisfy with it and yeps, I will be moving over there in August! :) The rent is still the same and inclusive of water and elec too. Just that i would need to install Streamyx myself.

My Space

As I grow older, space matter. Space can be link to freedom. Independence. It's been 3 years since I moved in here in Sunway. I grew to like it quite a lot. Pyramid can be called my second home. I remember i stepped into A404 on 14th July 2003, or at least somewhere around that date. I never left a tear when I left home, I am more than excited! My own room, own computer, own way to carry out my life. Hmm..not exactly my own, but half of it. Still financially dependent and still sharing a room. I am blessed with a good roommate, von :). Besides that, I have a whole bunch of wacky housemates during that first semester. Then, the quality of housemates got worst and worst. Messy, dirty and unbearable. The worst is this semester. I felt like I am living with ghosts sometimes. But not the whole house, just a few particular people. I shall not start to bitch about it, because that's not the purpose of this post. So, this means that my space have been invaded and violated. I do not welcome those dirty and cold bunch of people.

30th June 2006, This will be the day I officially stepped out of Sunway into another home. Half of me is reluctant to move. Living with your mother's friend is not a good idea. I finally understood this point, even though I have not even move into the house. It means half of your freedom is being slashed. Its worst than hostel curfew. You have to start thinking of not coming back late or not get your mum's friend worried about you. It seems that when I move in, she have a responsibility to take care of me. I don't need that extra nurture, just a company. I decided to move there because I thought she would be somebody familiar. Wrong. Its a burden for me. I have bad vibes, even bad vibes of living in that area.

Today, I will be moving half of things to the room. I don't think the room could occupy all of my things. I told my mum. She asks me to bear. Wow! Expected. I don't think I can live without internet for 6 months. Besides that, the reason I want to move out is to have more space of my own and not get an even stricter curfew. Snatch thieves seems to occur over that area quite often. And so I have heard, its not a very safe place to live in. I think anywhere in KL or PJ or elsewhere is never safe. 'Just be streetwise and have faith' like Josie say. I have to start looking for a new place soon. I have reach point that I don't think I can bear anymore. Telling myself 'everything will be ok, just bear it a bit more'. Bearing means bottling up. My bottle is full. Its leaking out of the lead.

I have bear with Form 6. Telling myself that I could lighten my parent's financial burden and try to live in it. I created a drive that I want to enter local university to be a pharmacist. Form 6 was hell. It is finally over and a new path would be spread in front of me to chooose. I thought bearing with that I could be able to get what I want finally. Punishment and reward to drive me through it. I wanted to do music. My parents gave me false hope, and I ended up in Monash University doing Communication, not Mass Communication. My second choice.

I have to bear with BA of Communication. Telling myself that I love that course and trying to find that the course is interesting. Yes, I did manage to find some good points. However, there are still plenty of holes in the fantasy I create to comfort myself. If its so good and if I have so much passion over it, why is there a hinge of regret that I have wasted 3 years. Oops, I did it again. The same mistake that I did in Form 6. Those pathetic 'bear with it' and 'it will be ok after this' technique. I HAD ENOUGH!!

I got so angry over these years that my passion for a lot of things has slowly dissappeared. Angry of how cowardly I am. How timid. Joy is right, 'You did not fight enough'. Art, music, cooking...it all just drift away. I can't find a reason to live lately. I'm tired of being what people expect me to be. The good filial daughter. Being a girl.

Parents got a place over in Damansara. They say its a stepping stone for my bro and I. I really appreciate them being thoughtful and responsible parents. Maybe you can call me unfillial or unappreciative. I do not like the place they bought. I don't enjoy studio apartment very much unless I am the only one living there. I have to share it with my brother a year later. I don't mind sharing a house with my brother where we have our own room, but this is a studio apartment. They plan to do partition. I don't think that is any good. They always say that its an investment, its for them and if I don't want..It doesnt matter. Crap! Its under my name first of all. Next, I am EXPECTED to pay half of the loan instead of paying rent to somebody else for a place. In the end of the day, I am EXPECTED to live there. Isn't it stupid that you have your own place and you want to rent elsewhere? That seems to be a rational.

I want to be stupid. I have an evil thought to not move in there at the end of the year. For now, I am going to find a new place soon. Somewhere that I will feel I belong there. I do not like living in Damansara Perdana because its at the other end of the world. I have grew to like Sunway area and Subang area. I don't want to live in the studio apartment. I want nice housemates. I don't mind living with my brother if each of us have a room of our own.

I JUST WANT MY OWN SPACE.

People always says that parents never listen. I believe that parents have made an effort to listen these days. However, the definition of 'listen' should not be literal, it should be 'listening and accepting'. What's the point of listening to you and refusing to accept the REAL YOU. They listen and try to be sneaky by softening down with advice that tries to change what you are presenting to them. Is it generation gap? I don't think so. Parents tries to shape their kids into particular way that they imagine their kids to be. However, kids have their own mind and they are an individual of their own. My mother always says I never share anything about my life with her. In fact, all this while I have always been telling her who I am but I realize that she refuses to see what I want to be. So, it was never true last time that I did not share anything but it is NOW. I have grew to keep things within myself. My dreams are still made of glass and still finding ways to solidify into steel. Its hard to share with someone who tries to destroy it instead of giving a bit of support.

I don't want to hear 'what if'...I just want to know 'how to'.

Hmmmm...long post.

In short, next mission: Find somewhere new to move to by August.

Vanished

SIARAN TERGENDALA

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Will be back in mid june! :)

When The Lights Went Off

'Contact (Full Names, Home Tel...), Qualifications..'. **POOF**. No, I did not dissappear. It was pitch black. I was listing down the stuff that I need to include in my resume before the lights went off totally. Luckilly, I haven't started to type it out. I used the handphone light to guide me down the stairs before i start to dig out all my tea light candle to light up the hall.

My parents and I just sat down in the living room. They were chatting away and I cant seem to sit still. I was fidgeting with the candles, walking in and out of the kitchen, went out to check on my dog and so on...I WAS BORED! Yes, I was really bored. A black out got me thinking that we are so dependent on all the electronic gadgets we have at home. We practically cant live without it. No TV. No Internet. No Music. No fan. Sighh...I just went out and sat with my dog.

The air was so cooling outside. SKy was beautiful and the view was breathtaking. At least its midnight blue and not purple, like the ones in Sunway. Thanks to the city lights. Nice to be back home with all the trees and fresh clean water. I could just drink from my tap because I can be sure that its not brown like those in the hostel. Sometimes i just wonder how i can bear with my filthy hostel. Sigh..Survival Skills Needed.

I went over to JOy's house for a night. My parents went to bed. It was too early to go to bed for me and its hot. So, JOy picked me up and i slept over her place. Well, she left to KL today. It was such a short meet up session. First day in Taiping, I let her spend time with Josie, dont wanna be the lamp post. Then, yesterday, we were just lethargic.

A Workaholic Reflection

“So do you have someone yet?” Rani asked.
“Single and happy”, I answered with a smile. A short pause.
“I’m too busy to fit a bf into my life right now”, I continued.

Its 2.30 am now. The conversation suddenly rang in my mind while I was watching ‘Returning Lily’ on Hallmark. I felt disgusted at myself for uttering the second line. I felt sick that I actually said that I am too busy to fit somebody into my life. Its just wrong.

The movie that revolves around a workaholic who got so busy that she neglected people around her, herself and her life. Finally, she found the meaning of living after a short trip back to Hawaii to bury her nanny’s ashes. It strucks me after a while.

Money. Full schedule. Endless traveling. Jobs. Internship. Future. The list runs on in my mind. I am turning into lil’ Ms. Scrooge. Well, I am not totally all that. I just got my own version of Christmas Carol re-run early :).

Human creates time. Human schedule their own time. There is no such thing as ‘no time’ for anything. Sometimes people get so busy with their new life, they forgot to contact their loved ones or old friends. Maybe their busy schedule has changed their perception towards that aspect of life. Its just not important anymore in their life.

I have been so busy this whole year. Juggling between my studies in uni and my piano diploma. Thurs to Sun in KL and Mon to Thurs in Subang for a whole year. To gain something, you lose something else. What I lost was my social life and free time. What I gain is wonderful dinner at uncle’s house, outing with cousin and music lessons.

An empty schedule scares me now. I think I have turned into a workaholic. Now I am exhausted physically and thirsty mentally.

I think I might just found the answer on what to do next month. Maybe I will still try out for the audition in January for a job. In the meantime, from 19th till New Year, I am taking a break. That’s what Christmas is for :). Prepare for 2006. Stay at home and reflect on 2005. Those sweet, bitter and sour memories. Resume my songwriting and writings online. Learn new skills, language and read. Rest.


MERRY X-MAS to everyone! Happy New Year 2006! Take some time off to rest. Even for a day.

Home Sweet Home

Home, Home by the lake...Finally back to Taiping. Came back with Joy and Josie. 4 hours, ahh..sucha long journey.

I know i should not be spending anymore, but i cant help it. ITs Lee Hom scorebook! I must get it! I am in KLCC. The only place i will be is Kinokuniya. Was there to get the scorebook. I did not know that i will end up getting another two more books. Then, Joy dropped me a surprise visit in KLCC while I was at the Cinnabon outlet.I was suppose to meet her in Nandos Pudu. She wanted 4 chocolate cinnabon but it will only be ready in 20 min. So, we left KLCC and went over to Nandos. Poor Josie, he waited half an hour for us.

I was pretty quiet at lunch. I was busy enjoying my hot peri-peri chicken with greek salad and fries, plus garlic and peri peri sauce. Looking forward to try their caesar salad, it looks good. Caesar salad is one of my favourite salad other than the Oriental salad in California Pizza Kitchen. Its salad with leafy lettuce, grilled chicken, bread pieces and parmesan cheese. Sounds good? :) I have only tried the one in Starbucks so far. The oriental salad taste very much like the 'Yee Sang', a must-have chinese cuisine during chinese new year. There are 28 ingredients in 'Yee Sang' and the act to mix it all up is call 'lou sang'. To signify prosperity and success in the upcoming year.

Okie...enough bout food already! I can go on and on..Maybe i should start a journal on cuisine one day since i enjoy eating so much :) MUahhaha!

Crab Feast!

My uncle made the most incredible feast today. Steamed crab in two variant = Fried with black pepper and steamed with egg. Oooooooooo! It was just so so delicious! Plus, fried vege and home maded fish paste cooked in soup!

Earlier, we were at Times Square, went to Neway with Sy Yun and Tyan! Ahh so funn...we havent sang together for quite some time. Neway black out that day. We got extra 15 min. The food that i ordered sucks. The unagi is just so so gross when its soaked in the soup, too fishy in taste. NOodle is fine. Should have ordered the Marmite Chicken, that tasted really awesome. Then, it was shopping spree for cousin. We had waffle with Belgian choc. Just awesome. There was not enough time to watch a movie, so we went back home instead. For da Crab Feast!!

Monash Open Day

I suck today. I have never been so stressed up in a performance before that i did not feel like playing for the second session. Being a classical piano accompanist is not that easy.

Firstly, my sight reading has gone really bad. I have not been playing much new pieces. That's why. Thanks to university life. Time to brush up. PLaying contemporary is so much freer, you can just play wahtever u want as long as its within the chords. Sorry Bei, u have to bear with my lousy sight reading. Hahahha.Thanks for being a great host while am at your place despite you are busy packing for you trip.

I was practising at her place from 12th Dec to 14th, and also on 16th night. She's the flutist and i'm the piano accompanist. 16th was a really tiring day. I got back from the audition, and both of us stil have to practise at night. I could feel my muscles and bones are like falling apart. I just crash when i touched the mattress.

We only made it for two half an hour session that day. She played really good and i screwed up quite a lot that day. Sighh...but it was fun jamming with ya bei! ehhehe..hopefully there will be more this kinda session :)

Monash gave us both a t shirt, cup and mouse pad. They gave me a XL size shirt when WIlson is only wearing size L. Aaaarrgghh..wondeer if they would allow me to change it. Andrew will give us a treat too! So sweet of him!

After the performance, i rushed to pack my back to go over to Cheras. Thank you Melissa for dropping me at Bangsar Lrt! Reached cousin's place, nobody was at home. SObs..i had to sit out there. Then i decided to get my lunch from the mamak nearby. Fried chicken, turmeric cabbage and curry with rice, with teh 'o ice. Just perfect. Sy Yun got back with Jia Hsien and i followed them to fetch Mimi. When i got back,i just crashed. Too tired liao and feeling a bit sick too. Over exhausted. That's all for the day.

Project Super Star

Woke up at 8.30 this morning. I have an important mission. I was there to test my guts. Today is the Project Super Star audition. Well, not many people knew i went for it, not even my parents. I just told a few friends and that's it.

So i got all dressed up, had a good breakfast and off I go. Reached Berjaya Times Square at 10 plus. There were already a trail of people lining up there. So there I was waiting at the line. I can see a variety of people there which includes, the ah beng, the ah lians, the cool dudes, the nervous one and then.....there is this guy that caught my attention. He looks like a mixture of Wu Ke Chuen and Dylan something (forgot the name of that actor). All dressed up in working attire. At least there is some eye candy to entertain me while i waited to register. Well, ya see, i went there myself without anybody. As usual, I will look for possible victim to talk to.

After registration, we have to sit down and wear the number given Mine was 1510. An hour or two to wait. Spoke to the girl next to me and her friends. Its good coz i could do with their help to look after my bag. Then, it was my turn, being called out with the other 9 participants including Mr. Cutie. I think i was half dead already, tired, slightly hungry and lack of spirit.

So, when it was my turn, I could feel my whole self shaking. I couldnt control it. The room was quiet and bright. The two judges just look at you without saying a word. A cameraman on my left and lights shining at my face. Then, I picked up the mic and sang a verse. MIssion failed of course. I could still remember seeing my hand shakes when i was singing. Voice sounded aweful. AHh...I pray hard that i do not see my face on TV. It would be such embarrassment.

I still have stage fright. Its proven. But this is not the same kind of stage fright. I am quite comfortable performing in front of a crowd if I am in a band. Not use to solo ones. When all the limelight is on me. My nerves just starts to shiver.

Well, it was a good experience and wont be my last :) More challenge ahead. I think its fun. Audition are places where you can meet people. As i was going down the escalator, i met JEssica Tham! My uni mate...waht a surprise! Then, i met this gal Echo Tan (who knows Jessica) and she's from Taiping as well. It was really fun to meet another Taiping-ians. We had lunch at 'Char TOng Kee' with Echo and another guy whom she just knew 2 hours ago. We exchange numbers and then i'm off.

Tadaa! My audition story.

Freaking Lazy

Freaking lazy freaking lazy, am freaking lazy..Too lazy to blog..so much that happened..I cant really keep track of my time..Busy, I would wish for one whole day, resting in my hostel room, With my pillow, Music in the background..as i daydream away....

LEt's see what i have completed so far:

28th-29th Nov: Finish testing my exam piano in Wan Utama

2nd Dec : Back to Taiping to help with the Charity Musical Concert

4th Dec: Played for the concert and coordinate stage work

6th Dec: Back to KL with mum

7th Dec: PIano exams in Sheraton Hotel. Hung out with mum and old friend
in Bukit Jalil. Its been long since i've last seen them.

8th Dec: Went Redbox with Von and Josie, Had PIzza Hut too and saw Narnia

9th Dec: Went to cousin's house for the weekend

10th Dec: Went Neway with cousin, Did a lil shopping, Saw Perhaps Love

11th Dec: Went to visit Mei Yee, had pizza hut again! Woo hoo!

That's for the week. Super packed with events!
Recap of da week

Girls Days Out

Its a off day for my cousin today. Its also the first time after my 5th semester we went to karaoke together so long. As long as 4 months! Wow! We we so happy actually, it has alwiz been our weekly routine before she started working. She was much free-ier then, we can go during the weekdays. She never managed to book the weekend usually because its always fully book. Finally, she found out that we can book a week earlier! YAyayy! Neway, the food there is still as good as ever. We had cheese baked crab and claw stick with penne. It was brilliant!

After that, we went shopping. I'm not suppose to be buying anything coz am on a tight budget. HOwever, heaven alwiz knows when you are broke and when to drop something that u wanted to buy for so long, and finally u manage to find it! I's the moss agate pendant! I have been looking for one for so long and finally i found it. The cutting is really pretty over here. Not the regular pendulum shape. its flat and thin. The moss is so beautifully spread that it resembles the mountains in China, some of the pendant has yellow tint. It looks like a sunset backdrop with green mountains. I picked the square one with no yellow tint. Price was reasonable but i had to use up my next week allowance for it..but its WORTH IT mauahaha :D

Cousin bought a few top, purse and a b-day present. I got a good bargain on a bag, It was 80% off! Only RM 14...so happy!

Then, her bf and SOphia came over for the 5.30 movie. We watched Perhaps Love (Ru Guo, Ai). Not a bad attempt for a chinese musical. HOwever, it does resembles moulin rouge in certain parts. The first song was sung horribly by the guy. Jacky cheung did a good job in his singing. Takashi Kaneshiro and ZHou Shun..they are ok..voices not too bad. But i love the song he sang for her. The script and lyrics has nice meaning in it. Overall..the show is ok. I still think I enjoyed Narnia more :D

After the movie, all four of us was freezin! We decided to eat chicken rice in Yulek, Cheras. It is a rainy day, nice day to have hot soup and chicken rice , along with blended ginger and chicken rice chilli. YUmmy yummy! Then, we food freaks could not resist the 'yao char koay' at the road side. We both got the regular one and another one with sesame and slightly sweet. You know what's cool about this shop? Its a chinese snack stall run by Indians. This is the best i have ever tasted so far as well. GOod job man! Next, was dessert and the row of shops below. My fav longan milk. The one i have been promoting non-stop. IT's actualy boiled longan (the brown ones) mixed with milk. The taste is awesome. Try it to know it.

Then, we went over to 'Lil Genting' (Xiao Yun Ding) to check out the city night view from above the hill. After that, back home. I just lay dead on the bed after a nice shower. Satisfied and happy as we check on the goods we bought for the day :)

Pasar Malam Story

I had my favourite waffle after dinner. Butter and honey. Not bad at all. Ooo, went to Pasar Malam in front of Leisure Mall at 9 something. The shoes were realy cheap and pretty. RM 10 per pair, got myself a pair too. We were the hero for that night. We had a hard time looking for parking. So we parked at one of the road side thinkin that cars should be able to pass it. Besides, everyone parked there as well. Kancil are perfect cars to squeeze into any corner. But who would have guessed a bus would bother to pass that lane? We did see a bus got stuck in front coz cars double parked at the road, we did not think that ours would too. Hahaha..it's a funny scenario. Scary too.

When we walk back, I saw a bunch of ppl crows near where we parked. I thought there was an accident. Then, i raise my head a lil, I saw a trail of busses, 5-6 of them, waiting to pass that road, blocked by our car. Ooopppsss! Big mistake to park there. Those bus drivers were all down, waiting for us to come back, so that they could drive through that lane to get to the bus terminal. Jia Hsien walked over and get the car. They were pissed indeed. But being a Singaporean, he could not understand a word spoken in BM. LUckilly, they did not try to beat him or something. PHew! So that's the pasar malam story. One Kancil that made 5 busses lined up in a trail.

I have never travelled so much in my entire life. This is my first year. It's been a very tiring year but i am happy with it. All effort was done for my music. I am still praying that i will pass my diploma exam. I just dunno what to comment on the recent exam i took. But, my piano exam is finaly over. Kinda sad. I miss having lesson with her. I think she will be really busy next year. Its great that she just got a part time job in Sedaya recently. Such gifted teacher should not be wasted.

My teacher forgot that i was suppose to meet up with her at 3pm. Travelled all the way to Sri Petaling for nothing.Luckilly, there was no heavy rain when i got back :) Went on to practise the performance pieces for Monash Open Day. -End-

Pulau Carey

This trip was something i stumbled upon..if its not for Sze Mun on Tuesday, I wouldn't have known about it. Some part of says don't go some part of me wanted to. In the end, I think it was a right choice to go. How often do i get a class trip..i often wonder. Sometimes, i think Monash should have more class trip to get the students to interact more with each other. Going for this trip does brings back lots of memories.

First memory that struck me was..well..school trips back in my secondary and primary school! Whole bunch of students..all whacky and cracked up in the bus. With exeption, we went over to PUlau carey by 3 cars. I was in Dr Yeoh's van with sze mun, yi shu, aaron and tmy. Aaron was the flight attendance (co pilot) with Daniel Guan on the Pilot seat. And we are the passengers...Sze Mun the camera woman the whole time. Firstly, PUlau Carey is located in Klang..and its an island. I think that's the stupidest question i've ever asked. " is pulau carey an island?" ..well how would i know Klang would have such island, anyway..its linked with a very short bridge, you won't really feel it, felt like u have just drove across a river.

The purpose of Pulau Carey is to pay a visit to the 'orang asli' village over there. I think Szen Ning has a message for them as well, regarding some meeting about orang asli in KL. The name of the village is Kampung Bumbun. When i first arrived..another nostalgic feeling flew past. We have to drive in a small lane, into the village..located inside the jungle. Felt like Taiping's nearest town such as Changkat Jering and Tronoh. Besides that, TReesss! I think have never been happier to see trees for the first time. Felt like Bukit Larut too, all those flora and fauna...sighh ..Except for the mosquito bit, hate that! and red ants!~

When we arive, they were weaving handicrafts out of nipah leaves. I learned a few tricks myself. The fish and the belangkas (sea animal)... It's just really adorable! After that, we took a walk around the community's centre then out again to the beach. That's the third nostalgic feeling..The BEach! HAvent seen one for quite some time..I think the last time was with Lor, Wendy and Wei Chern in Penang. This one has a very short shoreline, the sky was really clear then and the sea looks good too. The not so nice part is, we are there at 4pm..the blazing sun can kill!

Later, we moved over to TelurGong for seafood. It was good..2 tables. We had the Thai style fish (over fried a bit), the beggar chicken (need more herbs), tom yam prawns (darn fresh!), marmite crab (yummy! even though i was too lazy to eat it), fried lil' sotong, sambal vege, siu ye tauhu and kai lan i think. Then next, we head over to Lil India in Klang..feels liek Masjid India. Finally manage to get my fav dessert (palgua)..but then...too much sugar than milk..erkk...that was around 9 something at nite. I was actually half awake then.

At 10, we make a move. Dr. yeoh picked the orang asli back and then only me and yi shu. It was a fun fun trip..So much of nostalgic feeling. There was twelve of us there which is Dr. Yeoh, Szen Ning, Michael, WIlson, JOanna, Sze mun, Eva, Yasir, TMY, Aaron, Yi Shu and myself! Hope the video of this trip will be edited by someone, at least something to keep.

I'm suppose to finish my Bangkok trip post..ahh..i've been so lazy till now. Maybe in the holidays...Hope I could still remember it in DeTails

Dates are nearing

On the way back from Sri Petaling, i felt like i was going to faint as i was walking. I think stress is hitting me very soon...when i reached back my cousins place, I thought i just needed to cool down. I got my self Cornetto Cookies and cream...Ahh...sweet indulgence.

My teacher made me played all four pieces today for the first time, i think i was freaked out. I've never heard myself played so terribly before...not that it is excellent all the time. I have been having problems with Ravel's and Beethoven's piece. Sobss..My teacher looks worried too, worried that i wont make it for the exam. Oooooooooooooo...It just kills you when you see her face which sends you this fear on how you fair so far. Faintish..still can feel it.

So many things to do this few weeks..more practice needed...more efficient time management. Finals in two weeks time, radio assign due in two weeks time too...Piano, nobody knows yet. *screammss*** But the dates are out. I hate suspenses like that. I think its time to call Trinity to check out the piano and dates.

Encore

Yesterday was the first time i attended a local musical show. It was held in KL Performing Arts Centre. Pretty cool place, old railway it seems. Went there with Wannie, Eva, Dr. Yeoh,Neets and Meng Yu (not sure if that's how you spell it). Meng Yu drove us there and we were suppose to meet up with Dr. Yeoh over there. We bump into Patric Teoh at the cafe while having some refreshment before the show. Then, an old friend too, senior of ours..Li San. HAvent seen her in ages.

The tickets are RM 25 for students and Rm40 for adults. It was a brilliant and entertaining show. I cant really describe Encore..but i do hope for an encore at the end of the show. "Don't know Don't Talk" and "Cun Kan aku" are my fav! At least those phrases and performances sticks in your mind after you leave. Too bad, those tracks was not on sale at the booth. They have Above Full Moon, Shanon SHah's album (Dilanda Cinta) and the Reluctant Saints, the Musical. I kinda like some of the tracks from The Reluctants Saints. I was really amazed with their performances, great facial expression and voices.

Here are further details about other tracks that they performed, taken from Kakiseni.com :


Title:
Encore - An Evening of Songs From The Malaysian Musical Theatre

Venue:
KLPac - Pentas 2
Jalan Strachan, off Jalan Ipoh, Sentul West, 51100, Kuala Lumpur, Wilayah Persekutuan
Date & Time:
Thurs 6 - Sun 16 Oct 2005 (Oct 6–7 & Oct 11–15: 8.30pm; Oct 9 & 16: 3pm) *No performance on Mon Oct 10*
Tickets:
RM40/ RM25 (Students)
Ticket Contact:
KL Pac: 03-4047 9000; TAS @ BSC: 03-2094 9400
Telephone:
03-7725 4858 (Five Arts Centre)
Synopsis:
Encore is a unique celebration of the music and talents of home-grown composers who have contributed to the Malaysian musical theatre in the past 15 years.

Directed by theatre practitioner and visual artist Chee Sek Thim, "Encore" will feature a cast of accomplished performers that includes Alex Koh, Ida Mariana, Sukania Venugopal and Tony Eusoff and Sek Thim himself. 2003 Boh Cameronian Arts Awards Most Promising Artist Shanon Shah has arranged the music, and will perform as the pianist for the show.

Showcasing the music of:

Gerald Toh: "The Reluctant Saint"
Hari 'Haze' Krish Menon: "Hip-Hopera"
Imee Ooi: "Above Full Moon" and "Siddharta"
Johan Othman: "Oh, Brickfields!" & "Reunion"
Saidah Rastam: "The Storyteller & M! The Opera (* special preview from the upcoming opera)
Sunetra Fernando & Adrian Lee: Opera Uda dan Dara

Director Chee Sek Thim has been around for over 15 years and has been involved in KL theatre for the past 15 years, working with the likes of Marion D'Cruz, Krishen Jit, Wong Hoy Cheong and Leow Puay Tin. His directorial credits include Leow Puay Tin's Ang Tau Mui, and the late Kuo Pao Kun's The Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral in 2000 and Reconstructing Medea in 2001.

Pianist Shanon Shah is a singer-songwriter, and he has just released his debut Malay-language album, Dilanda Cinta. Trained as a chemical engineer, Shanon has previously worked as a journalist and a credit risk analyst. He is also a passionate human rights activist.

Alex Koh is a relative newcomer to the Malaysian stage. In his first theatrical involvement, he played the role of 'The Lover Boy' in productions of The Fantasticks in 2000 and 2001.

Ida Mariana is excited to be back in the rehearsal room, after being away from the stage for some time. Among the theatre productions she has been involved in are "Pouring Out of Me", "Mergers and Accusations" and "The Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral". She is also on air on Red 104.9 FM on certain days during the week.

Sukania Venugopal has been involved in theatre for over 20 years and is one of the foremost actors in Malaysia. Her most notable appearances have been in "1984 – Here and Now", "Box of Delights", "A Streetcar Named Desire", and "Those Four Sisters Fernandez", amongst others. In recent years, she has done much work with the Temple Of Fine Arts in productions such as "Butterfly Lovers", "Ramayana" and "Shakuntala".

Tony Eusoff is originally from Kuching, and is a much sought-after model, actor and host. He has appeared in tv commercials, fashion journals and shows. He has appeared in lead and supporting roles in a number of popular programmes such as "Astana Idaman", "Mahligai Gading" and "Sutra". He has also appeared in numerous telemovies, including "Musuh Dalam Selimut" and "Kabus Merdeka" He was also in the feature films "Di Ambang Misteri" and "Gila Bola".
Join them all in this not-to-be-missed performance!

Do note, the performance scheduled for Sat Oct 8th is "Lessons for Life", a charity night in aid of Malaysian Care and Wings Melaka's Early Intervention Program for Disabled Children.

Another Semester Ends

I am in my fifth semester of my university. Its ending in 2 weeks time. In a blink of an eye. Too fast, too soon, the cards reshuffled again. It always does. It felt like the Jumanji board game. As you throw the dice, the black mist gives you a hint on what's coming up and your whole world turns topsy-turvy and then you start adjusting again. Sometimes i get weary over it, a bit nervous and sometimes i hope it would at least stay long enough for me to breathe.

I realize I havent written for almost 2 months or so. I cant remember. So many events i would like to update, i hope i could still remember it precisely. I was just at my off-peak moments. Thinking and rearranging my thoughts, perceptions and philosophies in life. Reading and capturing more to improve. Learning how to see and live in this world with ultimate joy and love. Things have quiet down now. No more assignments to worry about, it all zooms down to my finals and piano exam. I think its time to resume my blogging after my mind have settled for now. It has been restless since the beginnning of the semester. End is good in a way.

My recent screen theories subject has taught me that no matter how much you try to capture a moment in words, you will just end up creating more or altered version of the real moment. So, a moment past is a moment loss. Photographs and video will only provoke slight memory of it. As time goes by, it might eventually vanish, eaten up by the time, bits by bits. Another pathetiq view of it is photograph aren't actually something you could keep your memories, it reenacts the thought of loss. The loss of a moment.

Screen theories is one subject that keeps me going this whole semester. One movie every week, how fun can that be :D Besides that, its art film and non-mainstream stuff..thoughts provoking ones. It becomes boring when you do not understand the meaning behind those films. However, after each tutorial, you become enlighten and its just one film that you will appreciate. Except for Casablanca, i still can't see why is it the best film ever made. Hahaha..personal opinion.

Other subjects, radio, management and IR...hmmm...i have been missing a lot of lectures this semester as well. Its the draggy feeling. Not lazy, just bored...i wonder if my interest is wearing out. I think its just too political for IR and i don't fancy politics much, but glad that i was forced to understand some theory behind it. Its alwiz conflict and more conflict. I think politics has no definite solution and that troubles me sometimes. Management is ok, just taking it. Even though marketing is more exciting as a subject. Tutorial in management is fun for me. Short and compact. Radio, one subject where i could mess with audio programs. Too bad its only 5%..Bah! Video programs..yet to try filming something...

That's bout it, time to catch up on my management before tutorial in one hour time. Have not been attending lectures for weeks..oh dear..cant remember...I've been very bad this semester compared to my previous records. Haha..Nerdy me! :D

Lazinest

A404, Room 1, We just declared that it is a 'Holiday Room'.

When you step into the room, you will send yourself into a stress free mode, and drift into a 'yam cha' mode or just pure laziness. It's already the 5th week. Von and I felt as though we are in our 3 months summer break. I'm so lazy this semester. I don't know why. I felt that I have lost the energy, or perhaps just pure lethargic-ness.

I skipped the management lecture 2 weeks in a row. The thought of the lecture just sends me further into dream land, as I refuse to rise from my bed. Glued to my comfort pillow. I enjoy the tutorial though, it's like a summary of important points that i need to know. Screen theories is fun so far, movies every week. What kinda course would offer such joy and fun subject? So far we have watched Casablanca, Battleship of Potemkin, Un Chien Andalou and Double Indemnity. All four are in black and white, some are film noir, some are voiceless.LOL, i think the scary part haven't kicked in yet. The part where we have to critically analyze it using screen theories for our assignment. Hmmmm...Internatonal Relations, no comment, all about conflict and conflict. Sickening. Radio and Tv, Love the practical work, sound programmes and editing. Have been skipping lecture for that subject too.

Ahh, what have gotten into me? I never really miss my classes. Am I getting tired already? Am I too occupied? Am i spending too lil' time with myself? My piano is giving me worries as well, improving in slug mode.

Better rest now. May peace be with me. May sweet dreams too, i have been having rather strange and nightmarish dreams lately. For example, i dreamt taht 6 tooth fell off my jaw, being chased (nothing new), speaking to the death, hauntings....ah..can't remember. I should keep a dream journal soon since i have such gruesome and strange dream.

The Smokey Land Day!

Today is the haziest day. I don't understand why do we have to bear with the haze annually. Don’t these people have any self-conscience in their mind besides profit and easy work? Burn, Burn, Let it Burn…Cheap way of disposing agricultural trash bits and clearing up the forest. The scorching sun and hot weather definitely encourage such kind of act. Lately, Sunway have been hit by the haze, very bad indeed. Does the Indonesian government ever bother to take action or at least teach them some better way to clear the land? This is not a political post, the haze every year is just more than i can bear anymore. It's been nearly 7-8 years or even more. We just take it in silently as though it is some annual storm that hits Malaysia and we are suppose to get use to it.

I always thought haze was nothing much. Maybe the effect does not really kick in until you start getting side effects or immediate effects from the haze. I woke up every morning with smoke smell wherever I go. My towel, my bed sheet, my fresh laundry, hair..ah you name it..It’s like you cant escape it, trapped in the box like some insect being fogged. Everywhere you go, there is the smoke. Guess what? People could still fog the area during the haze season. Hahah... I remember reading one optimistic comment about the haze "It's good that there is haze, less mosquito breeding". There have been dengue over around KL before the haze hits. So,they have been fogging the area quite often.

I was the hero of the day. I seems to see haze as nothing except for the nausea feeling that it gave me everyday. I actually travelled to KL during the worst haze reading for that day. Maybe nearly 400 for Sunway that day. Well, the stupid hero got herself slight eye irritation that day. Then, the following day, the flu kicks in. Now i finally understand the danger of haze.

Besides that, i was so geared up to jog everyday around the hostel. It was record breaking because i actually continued my regime on the second day as well. Then, on the third day, the haze kicks in! DArn! Mission failed.

Went back to Taiping to escape the haze or at least somewhere i could finally smell fresh air again. Somehow, the haze followed me back.

Well, That's all for my haze story!

Poetry

"Poetry is not an expression of emotion, but an escape from emotion"

-T.S. Elliot-

Bankok Post: First Day

The taxi to the airport arrived at 9am in front of Suet's place. Yi Shu, Yaseer and I spent a night over her place. Her mum cooked us a wonderful dinner last night. It was the curried turmeric chicken! Totally delicious and must have!

We load our bags in the boot and started believing that the day that we have been waiting for is finally here. We were an hour early there we are suppose to fly at 2plus. The Air Asia flight got delayed again. As usual. So the 20 of us were there. They are Suet, Yi Shu, Sze Mun, Joanna, May Yee, Fikri, Meng Yoe, Kerry, Juliha, Shazanah, Aaron, Sasi, Dr. Yeoh, Yaseer, Aaron, Wani, Sze Ning, Malina, Sarah and I. Linora and Benji could not make it that day, and Eva too. I think i havent had a school trip since Form 5. It was great to be travelling with a bunch of friend. Good company, good laugh.

Well, how can be forget Yi Shu who got a panic attack for awhile when she could not find her passport when we were about to board. She realise that she left it in the toilet and we went searching for the wrong toilet as well. LOL..well..thank god its still there.

We reached at about 3 plus. Bangkok is such a hot place. Then, we took a cab to our inn. Its called Sawasdee Krungtep Inn, around Khao San area. I shared a cab with Sze Mun, Aaron and Kerry. The taxi man got a bit lost. We passed by the Soi Rambutri lane but we did not turn in. So, we kind of skidded off and had a mini joy ride around Khao San. In the end, we got the cheapest taxi fare after all the sight seeing and getting lost. I think the cab driver is till rather new or just nice or havent learnt the skill to con foreigners. Khao San is a nice place, with lots of tempting goods to buy along the street.

For the first time, i actually felt so strange not being to communicate properly with the locals. We went up to freshen up before dinner. Our Thai guides arrived around 6pm and they took us to this restaurant called Tom Yam Kung. They are Orn, Sharif, Can, Nutra and few more. We had a wonderful dinner. We ordered the Tom Yam Kung, tamarind soup with omellete and prawns, thai style tempura with sweet sauce, fried bread, steamed fish, Thai otak-otak, Thai salad (squid and salted egg), mixed vegetable and our staple food, rice.

Then, we were off to Khao San to walk around....Then we call the night off. The hotel (backpackers inn) is rather pleasant. It was not as bad as i expected. My mosquito repellent and coil was not needed at all there. Sighh..waste of money buying it.

Josie and Joy

Joy is finaly back! So good to meet up with old friends. Josie as well a.k.a. Joshua. We met up in KLCC. Life is filled with coincidence or perhaps fate. When Joy was on the way to the bus stop, she bumped into Wannie who happens to be there to buy her bus ticket back to Taiping. She was suppose to get back home, but then luckilly she managed to stay. Before she could call to ask her mum, the phone rang. It was her mum.

It was great to see her in front of Cinnabon with Joy. Hehehe..the more the merrier!

Oh yeah, was back early in KL for the performance on the 16th. Had such a great dinner on Sunday. We had our first rehearsal on Sunday with Terry, Kingsley, Tina and Steven. They brought me to a Brazilian restaurant to eat. I was expecting mamak that night and Tina was craving for 'Char Koay Teow'. Dinner was brilliant. It was buffet style. The salad and appetizer bar is at the corner. Then, the meat is served to you in a skewer. They have fish, chicken, different part beef, cooked pineapple, lamb, turkey ham and sausage. It was yummy~! They slice the meat straight onto your plate. You can always ask for more. Then, they joke about how you better not complain about your food in this place, cause the waiter holds a very sharp knife with them. For those who are interested...here is the address:

Carnaval Churrascaria

77, Jln. SS22/19, 47400, Petaling Jaya. Tel: 03-77252252

It's around RM 50 per head. It has a nice environment and air conditioned plus it serves wine as well. A definite place to go for meat lovers!

Not so Musical Afterall...

The title does not mean that i am giving up on my music dreams. It's just that i have been thinking for a while, the blog title does not really goes hand in hand on what i am posting all this while!

So, Today (3rd July 2005) ..i am launching a new name for this blog:

-------------THROUGH MY SPECTACLES------------

i haven't wrote much on my musical progress in this blog, its more to how i see the world and a journal as well...So there you go! :D

Through the Eyes

Some says that in life, we wear different masks when we interact with different types of people. The way we communicate with our parents, friends, boss and colleagues carries a different pattern in terms of manners and words we use. To me, i would say that we not only wear different masks but we also wear different eyes spectacles to view the world. However, not many owe a pair of good spectacles but it is not impossible. All you need is a just a bit of determination, faith and imagination.

Maybe then, you will find your own neverland.

I love Johnny Depp's charater James Barrie in 'Finding Neverland'. The movie was a bit dull in the beginning, but i like the way he view things. A simple scene about kids jumping around on the bed can be transformed into kids leaping and flying out of the window to neverland. Then he came up with the play Peter Pan. That's what interesting about movies and theatres. They draws you into landscape you might or could not imagine. It also transports you to worlds that you do not believe it exists at all, making you want to believe and reach it. It allows you to see the world with a different spectacles.

Besides that, the character Edward Bloom in Big Fish is very inspiring as well. Death, seems to be feared by most people. Gypsy predictions and fortune tellings can be disturbing. However, it is just a point of view. It is how you see it basically. The world can take a turn if you could see it in the other way round, the bright side. Check out these quotes from Big Fish :

"I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you’re gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn’t it? Because you’d know that everything else you can survive" .

"Did you ever think maybe you’re not too big? Maybe this town’s just too small".

"You think this town is too small for you, well, it’s too small for a man of my ambition".

Well, something to ponder upon for me. I think this post is getting too long. Will rest now and hopefully no more mosquito attack! I will end it this quote from Star Wars: Return of the Jedi, Ben's words to Luke.

"You're going to find that many truth that we cling on depend greatly on our own point of view".

Flab or Weight Obsession

"Oh look my butt is getting bigger!", "Shit, I ate too much today!", "My arms and thighs are shaking", "Tummy is bulging out", and “Am I fat?" ....and the list goes on. These are such frequent quotes among women lately. In fact, I am sick of it! It can get so tiring sometimes. Some complained that they are fat but I could hardly see a bit of it. Some said they ate too much but what they had is maybe two slices of bread with tuna for lunch? It's nice to be a bit fleshy, it would be nicer to hug wouldn’t' it? Somehow, society see fleshy as fat! Oh dear...

People trying to look like models, desiring for long and skinny legs and small ass. Well, no matter how hard you try, you won't look like one of those mannequins on display or models. Well, not impossible if you are willing to go through the pain of lipo-suction or surgery. Fashion these days and the way clothes are designed forces us to be thin, plus the influences from media and fashion magazines as well. I could rarely find a shop that does not sell clothes which are catered for mannequins instead of how the human size varies these days. With exception, foreign label clothes that will offer a bigger size than those by the local boutiques that usually offers free size or their large size seems halved.

The fastest and only way to having a good body is through exercise and healthy diet. Besides, looking like a skeleton is not beautiful. For some who opt for exercise and healthy diet, they develop an obsession for it. Some won't really realize that they are overdoing it. C'mon, how long are you going to live in this world? When you are in your 40s or 50s, you will have to watch out for your diet already. These are due to fear of cholesterol and health purposes. So, if you start avoiding all kinds of delicious food in your 20s or teens, you are missing out a lot in life. Dieting does not make you thinner other than giving you a flat stomach. You will still have flabby arms and thighs even though you shrink in size! HAH! Aneroxic-ly ugly! The moral of this crap is eating all you like and exercise after that.

I am no exception from this 'thin is beautiful' ideology.

However, I am fighting it. Sometimes, I wish I had smaller thighs. One of my famous quotes is 'Look! I have tsunami wave’s thighs'. It's true, but that's because I am a bump and I do not exercise much. However, I still feed on mashed potato, pastas, pizzas, ice cream, fried food, late night supper sometimes but not obsessively. I am proud of that :). All I desire is a nice and toned lower half. I don't want to look like a stick or with bones jutting out. Fleshy is good. I don't want to be called 'Ms. Olive' or 'I could play guitar on your chest' or 'Ouch..your bones has just poked

Back to my Humble shack

After a week plus in Taiping, it was definitely nice to be back in KL. I was all busy again. Miss my pillow and blanket! Ahh..cant live without those.

The room was filled with dust. As usual, i started mopping all over the place and it was as black as ink. Yucky! Then, i just sat down and enjoy my japanese drama and enjoying mum's home cook food. Love the stew pork with fungus and preserved vegetable. Chinese delicacies that you dont find around Sunway very often.

I am getting realy excited for my Bangkok trip. Its a mix feeling. A bit scared, nervous, excited and happy to see a new place. Its my first voyage to Bangkok, land of angels and somewhere which speak a language that i would not understand. I will be picking up some basic Thai this weekend..till then..ciao

Real Life Paperboy Game

It was a bright sunny but hazy afternoon...

However, when i was driving around town today, i was faced with all kind of obstacles. Some was frusfrating that makes me cursed the whole way. Some are just frightening. It just reminded me of the paperboy game where the player is suppose to avoid all obstacle which includes human, animals and cars that would suddenly appear in front of you, while delivering the newspaper. The only difference is this is REAL. I thought i would be in for an accident soon or someone will die without knowing why. First corner, there was a bicycle cycling steadily by the road and i slower my car just in case he will swing out of allignment. And my prediction was correct. Next, people crossing the road as though they are no cars on the road and without needing to look left or right. Cars that fly out of the junction and expect those on the straight road to stop for them. Cars that is in front of you can suddenly stop. Then only the signal comes in. Wow! I am suppose to read their mind that they intend to pull over at the side of the road.

X-box? Play station? I don't think i need all those two to enjoy a nice arcade game. What can be more exciting than your very own and real arcade game. All you need is a car and the location, which is Malaysia. The trick is to drive down the Malaysian road and you will get the same thrill that you will get in an arcade station when you play those car racing games. Only better. Nah, i'm not preaching on racing on the road but how ugly can Malaysian drivers be. At one moment, i was wondering if i am actually behind a joystick or a stearing wheel today.

Dream a lil' dream

Dreams are such fragile objects. It could be shattered with just a single word or phrase. However, that will only happen if you let it get into you. Somehow, the universe is kind to souls who are open to messages around them. If we learn to interprete signs within your environment, you will receive messages that constantly remind you of your dreams. Well, not only your dreams, sometimes it helps to solve what is troubling you subconsciously or consciously.

God and angels are not the only being that will give you answers. Sometimes, they scattered all the answers around you. It could be hidden in your books, movies, music, people you meet and even unanimated objects. We are creatures that constantly need to be reminded of what we want, what we would like to be or what our dreams are. Obstacles sometimes loosen your hope for what you want. Sometimes we even crave for approval so much that we loses our confidence when we do not get it. You begin to doubt and then the FAILURE word appears. Fear looms. Damn it! Damn it!

I have been staying up late till 4 am gawking over movies in Hallmark channel. Yes, to some it is a bloody boring channel. Somehow, these few days i have been watching nearly 4-5 movies in total which is being aired after midnight. All of it speaks of the same theme. It has got to do with 'chasing after your dreams', 'music', 'its never too late', 'be what you want to be' and more music..

Today, i watched The Sandy Bottom Orchestra. It's about music again and how they work hard to gather people around the small town for a charity performance. It's a small ensemble. There was a pianist who repress what she used to love, playing the piano. Then there was the uncanny when she recites her senior recital piece which she used to play.

Oh dear, my communication studies are back again. I can't believe i sat and talk about oedipal complex and freud and his funky theories and foucault and patriarchal and identity construction to wannie and cjeh. My mercy! I hope i did not spread the headache to you people.

Time to shut up and sign off now. Zzzzzzzz.

Violin Wisdom

'The violin makes the music..because it sits right above the heart. It's how can you connect the two to make feelings out of it'

-The Sandy Bottom Orchestra-

Sailing back In Time

I have a problem sleeping at night when i'm home. This is really strange. I keep feeling that i am running out of time and i have so much to do. Or maybe, I am just missing my pillow and blanket back at my hostel, which I regret I did not bring it home. Sigh. And look at what I am doing now, blogging crappy stuff and thinking above what is needed.

I thought of my grandma when I saw the movie (Back when we were grown up) on Hallmark just now. Memories just flashed back. The scene on how they celebrated their grandfather's 100th birthday and what a jolly good fella he is. I have never met mine. Sometimes I do wonder what kind of person would he be.

My grandma is a petite lady with strong traits. I believe that she would make it big if she had the chance to study back when she was younger. Her cute lil' 'dong shan' slang and jargon she has when she speaks Cantonese will always be remembered. She loves to tend to her garden every morning. I could still remember her daily ritual everyday. Busy as a bee.

Firstly, she will rise as early as 7 a.m. when her ancient alarm clock (those that u need to wind up every night to function) rings. Next, she would spend quite a while grooming herself in the bathroom while sitting on her stool and a plastic basin beside her feet. Then, she will start washing her clothes with the brown soap (cap kapak, that's all i remembered). Purely traditional way. No modern detergent nor washing machine. Next, she would hang her clothes outside on the wire with wooden pegs.

Her garden is her priceless possession. There were all kinds of vegetables and herbs there, till we moved to our new place. It has been cut into half. We used to have a creepy crawly bean plant, sugar cane, 'pegaga', aloe vera, pandan leaf and a few other species that i could not identified the name. Every morning she would pluck off the weeds while sitting on her stool and in the evening she would water them with the leftover water (after washing rice). I don't remember any synthetic fertilizers used but purely fish bones or anchovies scraps. Now the garden is barren. There is only the bean plant that reminds me of her. That makes a delicious soup.

There are a few dishes that she specializes in. The yam cake and 'jin tui' ( some flour balls that is served during CNY, don't know what it is called in English). She could sit for hours as she slowly roll the flour or grate the yam. I love looking at her collection of old coins, some as old as 1915, ancient locks and also some of her embroidery. Its beautiful. As a kid, i used to watch her sew her own clothes and even buttons (made of cloth)!We rarely see those type of buttons these days. She would sit near the main door as she starts her work.

I could write on and on about her. I will just type whatever that crosses my head for now. Being back home can be wonderful but sometimes you are being reminded of so many things. The house never look the same each time I return. So does the town. Attachment equals to suffering.

True Life

'There is no true life. True life is what you end up to be. You have to make the best of what you've got.' -Back When we were Grown Up-

Getting What You Wish For..What's Next?

Sometimes in life, we wish so hard for something...When we finally get it, what's next? But not for everything in life of course..

I wanted my exams to finish soon because i have so much to do. When it's finally over, i forgot what i wanted to do. Blank. Double blank.

I sat in front of the computer for the past few days, downloading songs non stop for hours without realising the clock was ticking away. Songs that i used to love so much, forgotten as years passed by. It felt so good to be able to hear it again. It also felt so good that i was able to sit in front of the computer to chat, to play games and to surf away without worrying when is the next assignment's due date. No guilt. Practising my pieces without time limit. Singing karaoke without guilt. Shopping and wasting time in Times Square. Just filling up the time of the day. Lazy to blog when i have the free time. Too busy blogging when i have so little time to spare.

I wanted the semester to end fast. Now it has ended. Somehow I miss it. People come and go in your life really fast. This process has speed up for me in the university. One semester equals to four months in Monash but equals to several years for me. The experience is too rich, relationships happens so soon, people click and depart so quickly as well as so much memories has been formed in just four months. Strange but wonderful :D. To those whose path have crossed mine, its been wonderful knowing you and i really appreaciate you.

I wanted to go home so much. So now i am home. What's next? Feeling a lil' bored now. I think what makes Taiping interesting is your family, old friends, memories, childhood and the beauty as well as serenity of this place. Without all these, there is nothing here. Misty hills and trees and moss, haven't seen that for a month already. Nothing has changed much when i took a cab home just now. As we grow older, the less familiar faces can be seen in this town. Back in school, we used to joke about how we would end up in one of those coffee shops or lake gardens in the morning as we yak the rest of our life away when we are old.Most of them have gone to the city or abroad. I wonder if i would see those faces again when i am 70.

We think too much sometimes that we forget to enjoy the present. We focus too much on the ugly side of life that we felt that we are the unluckiest human on earth. There got to be some good and positive bit in the most horrible situation you ever experience. You just have to look closely. The simplest and wonderful things in life are just in front of you. We overlook it because we keep wishing for more and more. We are suffering inside because we amplified the sad side. When we have nothing to wish for anymore, we just go blank when we get what we want. So, keep in mind:

'When one door closes, another door will be open'

Father's Day

This year's father's day was spent in my uncle's place. Dad had dinner with his friends for Father's Day, Mum's in Genting, bro is in college and I am still in KL. I was supposed to be back this Sunday but my dad says there's no need to rush home. So i stayed over in my aunt's place.

Few hours before dinner, we went out to shop for grocerries. Then, we head over to Jusco for certain ingredients that is not available from the grocery store such as smoked cheese, bacon, prawns and few other items.

We had a blast on Sunday, more like a feast, specially prepared for my uncle by both of my cousins. I contributed two very simple dish :). Tuar boiled ABC soup and i cooked Indian curried long beans as well as fried omellete with preserved lettuce and chilli. We are the Asian cooks for the day ..haha.

Next, we present the super chef Sy Yun. She prepared some western style dishes that includes, fried dory fish and chips, prawn with salmon and bacon cheese dip as well as a bowl of salad. It's amazing to see how she work on the garnishing on all the 3 dishes. Serving your food with nice bowls and plates does give a boost to your presentation as well. To complete the meal, we had Baileys, orange juice and screwdriver (Vodka+orange juice). Baileys (choc milk with alcohol) was a wrong choice for such a heavy dinner, we were too bloated to finish it up.

Cooking is fun. Cleaning up is the suckiest part. Tuar and I was having a massive backache after that. Getting old :*( or just lack of exercise :P muahahah!

GOing to keep this post short and sweet! Till then!

Fun Fun Fun

Class finishes on Wed for this week! Yayyy! No PR classs on THurs! So am off to my cousin's place after Andrew's.

Waited for an hour in the foyer, then we went for the famous and delicious pork ball noodle that Wannie is talking about all this while! It's really superb and heavenly!! YUmmmyyyyyyyyyyy! Then, reached back home at 3.30pm..just in time to pack and rush into my Chia Ling's car. Cousin came just right after i got home. Next destination, SUmmit! We walked around the place while we wait for 5.00 pm (Seed of Chucky starts then). The movie was alright, felt like my childhood has came back again...they sencored so many part (pissing off) and i realised that all this while i watched Chucky on VCD. I get to witness all those slashing...somehow that movie seems to be out of time now. It's predictable...too predictable. As usualy, chucky never dies (spoiler bit :P).

Next, we went for dinner in Asian Cafe. Had a great meal there. Fried abalone mushroom (yummy), some spanish rice (taste a bit burnt), cheesebake rice (i was too full for it because it was the last item to reach), satay, dumplings and the 'zhar jiang mian' (looks really delicious and big, should have ordered that. Johnson fetched my cousin and i back to her place. I am stuffed, so was she. We just slept off after hanging out in Sy's room for a while. Yu san was there too that night.

The next day (19th may), we were off to NEway! YAyay..i havent had my karaoke doses for quite some time liao! Chia Ling pops in halfway because she overslept (suppose to work that day). Then, after Neway, i bought a pair of sandals and we met this guy who looks like wu ke qun (cute!). Hahhaha..We hang out in Chia Ling's house after Neway. Her room is really neat, and her aunt's place is really neat and compact (awesome interior)! She made us tiny lil bread with spread (butter, peanut butter). Basically, she stuffed us. We had like 8 slices of it plus coffee and my cousin's rice. Goshh..very stuffed. When we got home to cousins' place, Sy made spaghetti that evening..stuffed again...But it was delicioussssss!

At night, we went out with Uncle Singh. He's a police and he was telling us about all the interesting stories of him , his dad and other topics too. It was a really enlightening night. His dad just passed away (my condolences) and cousin basically asked him out to cheer him up. We were suppose to go for longan milk but we ended up in Genting and liquor. Chatted the whole night, took a tour around the casino too..got back home and slept at 3 am. Too tired to chat ...

Next morning (22nd), piano class at 10! I sounded really rotten this week...ahh..felt so bad again..lack of practice :( I must work harder for the next class! After that, got home just in time for Kingsley practice! Spent some time chatting with Penny while Brian and Sasha was teaching the juniours how to do rock n roll for the performance..ehhehe

Came home and fixed my bloody comp again. I don't know how many times have i reformatted this semester...TIRED! SO TIRED OF REFORMATTING IT!

*breathess**...Such an exhausting weekend..Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Grace is back! A404 reunion!

15th May- Dim Sum for breakfast! Yayyy :D We bump into bei too on that morning! Kl ain't that big afterall, hehehe..So long since i have spoke to her, thanks to those bloody assignments and workload. So we planned for a catch up session the next day. The breakfast was really heavy i think, coz i did not chomp on any food till about 9pm at night. It's amazing how my stomach can last that long before it starts to cry. Eva's mum dropped me back that afternoon.

As usual,got back home i reached for the bathroom to shower and crash to bed after that. Lack of sleep from the night before. When i woke up, Von said that we are going to some Mexican place for dinner with A404 gang. It's been so long since all of use actually hang out together for a dinner, used to be everyday when everyone is stil around. Then, the plan changed to TGI Fridays coz its nearer to Josie's place and so we can fetch her. Everyone was suppose to wear skirt that night, its like a girly night out! It's been long!

The gals present that night was Grace (back from singapore), Seau Yean (long time no see), JOsie, Nithia, Ev, Von, Jeff ( Joker No. 1) and I! Too bad Ayushna din make it that night..if not it would be a full reunion dinner! Had a feast again at night! The food was awesome..finally had my Queso..that would stop my craving for cheese for a while. It's strange, i crave for cheese everytime exam is near or when my assignment is piling up. We had dessert..finally tasted the mudpie (yummyyy! my fav!), then the brownie (its warm and chocolate-ty!) and the sundae (too stuffed to appreciate that).

Jeff was cracking endless jokes that night. He showed us his 'ah beng' way of flipping his panasonic phone. Then, his lawyer stories and all. Nit was resisting food the whole night with bf excuse(Smack! Wake up and be free yourself!Exercise is the best solution!). So good to see everyone actually. Reminiscence of the past, back to where the wild days of A404....We don't need any Einstein time machine to go back in time, just the right company.

Back home in the hostel, we started snapping pictures of ourselves (perasan case)..hehehe Then Zzzzzzz after a whole dose of MTV from my collection..

Grace left the next day early in da' morning..din get to say goodbye also...yikes..Anyway, if ya reading this woman...Do come and visit us again and take care :D!

A Contemplating Saturday

The weather was extremely hot today. I sat at the bus stop, waiting for the bus to KJ Lrt. They took like nearly 50 minutes to reach, I thought i have counted my time wrongly or so. I was suppose to meet Eva at 4pm but ended up half an hour late because of the bus. When, her car came..we head over to the Buddhist Gem Fellowship centre. I was there to support her for her speech competition and i did not know it was organized by a buddhist fellowship. It was nice to revisit this kinda place again, i remember i used to go for dana offering and also dharma talk back in secondary school days. Missed those :D

The place is really clean and neat, reminds me of a Japanese home shrine and also some Zen place..heheh. Incense was consumating the whole place all the time. Peaceful and pleasant. Then, the folks there were busy packing CD for distribution at one corner and the participants were busy rehearsing their speech. I really do admire people who could do nice speeches, something which i haven't really mastered and try out. I remember how i made a fool out of myself in the Interact Club speech during some Leadership training course. *sighh* *embarassing* :P

Then i went scouting around the place, i landed in the books corner. I was really impressed on how the the sales of books were done. Trust Basis. There is a small box that contains money at the side. In order to buy the books there, we just need to fill up the slip and place the amount of money for the books that you intend to buy. It's a self service sales and payment. I got myself '108 Treasures of the Heart' and 3 boxex of incense (rather cheap) and also 2 more books which is free for distribution.

Then, the competition began at 7pm after some refreshment. We were served with vegetarian food. The vegetarian beef ball was delicious :D. Eva's speech was about 'The Greatest Gift of All'. There are a few other stories that i personally liked too by the other participants (One is about her own experience as a monk for 2 weeks, another about a hillarious version of 3 little pigs and others) They have great moral values in every story that goes hand in hand with the motto ' To build a better tomorrow'. Every guest that attend the competition is given a piece of paper to judge the participants. Then, the night ended or perhaps just began?

Eva's parents brought us gals ( eva, elaine and I) for a nice supper (it's more to a dinner) in Souled Out in Hartamas area. It was an awesome place. We had a like fiest, i think her parents are really proud of her taht night. There were a variety of drinks that we tried out ( baileys, wine, macadamia shake and etc.) plus snacks (naan, fried tauhu, satay,chicken wings and etc.). We got back home at 12am. We did not sleep till like 5 am i think. 12-1 was spent gaga-ing over David tao's video and also chatting away. Fixing Eva's comp too, it's so slow (woman u need to defract your comp when is needed before the fragmented files piled up! :P) Then 2am is the David Tao interview and we yak for awhile till we fell asleep at 5am.

End of Assignment Phase 2 (partially)

End of PR assignment (Phew), end of PR presentation and exam (phew)...And finally, figured out my Research Question! ...I was left with this space of emptiness, i think i was too busy for the past 2 weeks and suddenly i just had one more assignment to go...Weirdd...I was walking up and down my cafeteria and foyer, dunno where to head to, like some lost souls..It was thursday, end of class for the week..

Then...i bump into JAsmine, Sandra, Jess, fay and Jenny. They had a plan, and i just went for it. We watched Kingdom of Heaven, took pictures from those ah lian machines, bought a pair of chopstick (nice wood texture) and had dinner at the hostelite dinner. Somehow, when the Thai bazaaar is around in Pyramid...i always have sore throat, thus i failed to taste their tom yam for the 3rd time..Damnn!

My cousin is not around this weekend,they are up in Genting. So i had to go to Bukit Jalil tomorrow from SUnway and without any practices for the week..Felt so bad. Then i was late for my music rehearsal too! I reached at 3.30pm in the physics lab..the rehearsal has just finished! Oopppsss..felt so bad againnn...

Anyway, this weekend will be spent on preparing my Research Proposal presentation...hope everythign goes well!

Go Go Girls!

Today is da' big day! Not for me though, Hahahha..for wannie and EV and suet! We started our journey at 9 am, Joe came and picked us girls up. Firstly, we went for breakfast around Taman Sea area after we picked up Hup Hee (joe's friend. Then, we were all set to go to Times Square. We reached there at 11 am or so. Met Suet and her friend there who came much earlier. She went into a series of naggin that we were late(lack of sleep syndrome as well as no breakfast, sigh). Told her that the plan was to have breakfast like the day before? Anyway, then we were quite early perhaps. The crowd wasn't a lot...but we waited for quite some time for them to be auditioned.

However, there were lunch break at 1.30 pm and the participants are suppose to come back at 2.30pm. Wannie happens to be in the session after the lunch break. Only Suet got in for the real audition.

It was really shocking to know that this is the pre-audition where they see whether you are fit for the real audition. So, my friends did not get to meet the judges but more of meeting the production crew in the pre-audition.

Anyway, it was not a futile attempt, we got like goodies from BP and clean n clear! A whole bag of goodies with sweets and biscuits and soft toy (urk)....

Got home, we just lay dead there....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Bad bad week

So glad that the bad luck streak is over, i was so sick after i got back on 1st may. It was a flu gone bad. At first, i was coughing a lot and then the flu kicked in. NExt, there was difficulty in breathing at night, the throat starts to itch everytime i lie down and i will just burst into cough suddenly in the middle of the night. On thursday, i couldnt take it anymore, it was unbearable to go on with my condition. The flu does not seem to heal and my face looks really pale. I went straight to the doc. My medication cost me RM 53! Ahhhh..1 antibiotic and the 4 other kind for flu and bla bla.

I just slept off after the first dose, woke up feeling dizzy and weak. I realise it was the lack of food intake before the medication. I nearly fainted in the toilet because of that. hehehee..Anyway, the next day was all better, but not better enough to join my wacky friends to 'buat lawak' in the Malaysian Idol audition.Saturday 7th may) came, my comp crashed and i had to reformat it again. Thank god i manage to move my PR assignment in time, if not it will be all gone gone gone!

CLOSING DOWN

There are thoughts to shut down this blog, but it is still under consideration...hmmmm ... What do you think?

Anyway, 'My Mind's Drama' (http://liyien.blogspot.com) will be still around. That would be updated more often. So head over there first before you drop by here to see if there is any updates ;P

This semester have been weird, i have never felt so busy for the last 3 semester. One assignment after another...haven't got the time for myself. At least to think or enjoy a nice day without having to worry for the next assignment. I guess i'm just being a panic queen all the time

Bloody Pickpocket

Well well! ATTENTION EVERYONE! My handphone got pickpocketed last weekend, on the 29th of April! So dun try calling my old number 0124178048...U can if you want, can either try bugging the barger who stole it from me or enter my voicemail..

Pudu bus station..To those who are not familiar with it, do read carefully:

It is the worst place to be but that is the only place to go home, unless if you do plan to take the plane. It's hot, stuffy, filled with weird people, pickpockets, dirty, smokey and packed. This is the place where you will meet lots of rudee and very rude malaysians. They either knock you without and apology or steal your stuff when you are least not aware.

BEWARE 1: WAlk really fast to where you are heading when you are
there

BEWARE 2: Be alert at all times!

BEWARE 3: NO hanging on the phone while walking

BEWARE 4: Just get the hell out of that place as soon as possible!!

Oh one more thing, those strings that hang out of your handphone, make sure they are ALL and NEATLY tucked insidee yoru pocket or bag, orr..u will risk your handphone being stolen, just like mine. It's so sad that we have a really beautiful airport in KL but the worst bus stop in KL! Taiping might be small, but they have a better bus station than that! WaAyy cleanerr...don't believe me? take a bus down and see for yourself :D

Met up with JOysie!

Back home at last! Joy was back this weekend! It's been quite some time since i last saw her! So we just hang around and catch up like old times. Met up with NEet as well, din know that she was stil in Taiping, thought she has left to KL :p

So glad to see my doggie! He's all well again, i hope he will stay that way and not pass off so soon :D His butt is bare now with a cut from the operation. There was some infection from the wound (after the growth fell off) and there was maggots. So, he went to the doc to clean up, injection and medication. Speedy is back to his usual self again! Mum cooked a whole lot of food and also dad brought us or nice dinner!Bro was back that weekend as well

I think i haven't been back for nearly a month. Thanks to piano class and endless assignment. Can't really run home...

This weekend isn't that great, my phone got pickpocketed...was not feeling so great bout it...

I HATE MALAYSIA'S TAXI MAN!

I hate malaysia's taxi man! All this while i thought i was living in a rather peaceful and harmony country, despite some racism here and there. I can't believe that i have my first taste of racism today!

My cousins and i was waiting for a taxi in front of Lot 10 after our shopping trip. It was 10 pm then. When the queue finally reach our turn, we were more and enthusiasted to see a taxi swirling in from the corner. However, the bloody Malay taximan, drove pass us and fetched the bunch of Malay teenagers in front of us!! Can you tell me where does justice live in this world?

Well, fine...that's not the end of our angry mode. Finally, the next taxi stopped in front of us. We went into the car. Guess what was the first thing he said to us? 'You gals are heavy and fat...one of you gals should be sitting in front. Ya see my taxi has leaned towards the left side. Unless you are thin like me then it should be fine'. Then he went on ranting about our 'heaviness'...and next how he hated the bumpy malaysian road which is filled with hole here and there.

Yeah..first of all, i think i should be complaining about how bad the condition of his taxi. My cousin commented that perhaps his car tyre need some more air and i think that he is way too scrony and he need to be fatter to balance out the car weight.

Too bad, we did not dare to fight back verbally, what if he drives us off somewhere and besides its late at night. (knowing that all the rape cases that have been happening around that involves a taxi).

Well, i just have some advice for all those taxi fella:

1) Don't drive a taxi if you hate your job.
2) There is no need to let your anger or your 'bad day at work' on us !! (the customer)...we are paying you remember?!?
3)If you are in China, i will file you in to the customer complaint and your license will be hang! Hah!

Not my Cup of Tea

I've been asked to club all this while, somehow i never seem to end up there. Today, finally i have to face my delayed promise. Zouk, that's where people never sleeps after midnight, dance and puff all night, puff weeds or just be bitches or poser there...Wannabes who holds a cigarrette just to look cool but do not puff it at all...

Maybe the government anti-smoking concept should shift to 'holding a cigarrette for coolness' in their advertisement instead of asking them to stop smoking. Then maybe the cigarrette companies sales will improve and people will stop puffing, but holds it in between their fingers only..

I have been given a rude awakening there...I do not understand how people can be so rude. Girls just bump into you like you don't exist. I nearly topple over when one bitch runs over me, and also another one later in the morning. Where have their receptor cells or maybe eyes went, or perhaps they have lost their tongue to even apologize...

Neet's toes got stomp by a guy with shoes without an apology. The nail is half attached and it is bleeding. Ouchh!

Well, i will never know....

The place looks like a Flinstone house, all white and nicely lighted up, colourful lightst illuminate the white walls, minus the posers in the background...hahah RnB music for that night and it's ladies nights. Somehow the music doesn't catch my nerve...and i'm a bad dancer....i can't dance! SEriousss! i can't!! eventhough i might be musically incline...LOL

It's not a bad experience, kinda have fun with great companies around. Girls shaking their booty and dancing to the rhythm. Laughing at posers. Bitching bout girls and guys there. Hahhaaha :D

I still personally prefer going to a pub to drink and have a quality chat while listening to a live band playing. At one split moment, i felt that i am too old for clubbing. Maybe there isn't an age limit, but more on personal interest and preferences.

The fun ends at 3 am as we head over to the mamak stalls. Neets toe is still aching. Things seems great when our roti telur, tosai telur, milo, teh tarik halia and teh tarik came....A feasttt in the wee hours

Uni has started, My brains haven't

It's been a whole 3 months since i need to memorize any alphabets or words, only notes. Those are relaxing and it kind of sticks in your head after a while. Finally got my readers, every single one of it, it's thick and just indescribable...

Sometimes i wonder i have got myself with the memory loss diseases...i am so forgetful lately, i am blur and my speech is distorted. I can't speak a English sentence properly, without mixing it up or getting the fragments wrong. Darnn! I think my brain have been rusted for so long.

I had my first day of class on Mon (28th Feb), the new lecturer started lecturing and giving tutorial on the day itself, not forgetting an essay for me to hand up the following monday! Darnn! The whole week haven't been all that bad, i had a great 'lepaking' time. It's as though i haven't been back in KL for a long time. Wannie brought me to nice places for dinner! Awesomee..i really apprecitate that woman! :D So i'm getting nice food for dinner so far. On wed, i am in Wan Utama...i am not suppose to shop but somehow i got myself a pair of sandals, nice purple one. I saw hide and seek as well, expected ghost but there is twist there, reminds me of 'The Village' but nothing similar to that movie though.

So on Thurs, planned to go to Zouk but before that, i went to Sg wang with Suet. She was shopping like there is no tomorrow, i enjoy tagging along. My eyes can't stop browsing for goods in the shops which i have never stepped in before. Maybe i just don't remember, every corner in Sg WAng looks the same. With exception, the Famous Amos, Chambers Music, Esquire Kitchen and the Lingerie, Vincci...somehow i still remember where these few shops are located. The other are just mere blurry images.

I got back to my hostel at 5pm, just in time for my economic rice from the convenient shop! My favourite fried chicken *hehehehhee** :D

Slumber at Bei's place

This post was suppose to be up much earlier. HOwever, my dearest brother accidently close my browser while i ran downstairs to have breakfast! Arrrgghh....i still remembered how pissed off i was..hahah. Anyway, i still remember what happen on that weekend!

So after lunch with Bei, we went back to her place. This is my first time in her house. She's got all her pink and cow influence in her bedroom. Her furniture are wood (brown), i guess if she has a choice, her whole room will look like the Reese Witherspoon's room in Legally Blonde. I was really impressed by her amazing collection of classical music :) Thank woman for the classical CD you have burnt for me! I was really tired that day cause i did not sleep the whole night after the Chinese New Year session which ended at 5 am, i only had a few hours of sleep. I just slept off on her bed for an hour withour realising. Then, it was time to dress up for the night and we went out to collect food. When we got back, its party time!

I think this is the most formal birthday party i have ever had..heheh.We had proper dining seat, with nice napkins and food are placed in the middle of the table. We had satays, roast beef, lasagna and pizza form pizza uno, salad and a few more other item. Wine and champagne as well. Then, there was a short speech by Bei and from all the guest to her as well. Feeling a bit warm from the wine, it was time to blow the cake and presents opening! Finally, there was Bei's superb piano performance after much persuasion from all of us present there! ehhehe

Everyone left,we helped her mum to clean up the stuff and tables. Then, i had my private piano lessons with Bei ( i think u make a fine teacher) She gave me a few tips on my finger shapes, arm movement, key touch and bla bla! Definitely enlightening! At night, we had our girly session..hopefully we did not wake up her aunty who is sleeping next door withh all the giggles..ehehe :P Think we slept at 5 something...

Next morning, we were just hanging around the house and going through all her Cds. Then, we went over to her Ah Ko;s place which is near Wan Utama. It's a very cool house, love the floor work! IT's all wood, not parquet type..but smooth ones like those in japanese houses. The interior was really nice. Then, back home and we chatted through the night...I went back to my hostel the following morning to wait for my parents. They were suppose to be down and we were suppose to visit my aunt! Another eating session ahead :) *grinss* IT's a very blessed new year..Blessed with great company and food :D

Zombie me!

Third day, i think i woke up at 12 pm again, i was nearly late for my house visiting session. Suppose to pick up Franny and reach wan's house at 1pm. So, we went from Wan's house to Wei Xiang to Lan Eng to Justin to Jee's and the last stop is Vonnie. Not the last stop for wan and i , we decided to drop Chang Jeh a visit as well. I only reached home at around 8 pm, just in time for my steamboat dinner. Then i zoomed out to Wannie's house. We hang out in the mamak place till like 12 midnight. Bumped into Swee Kheng and Chandu is back from Penang to join us. Somehow, we had another TOD session. I had to end it early though coz i haven't even pack for KL yet! Ah..so much to do, that includes stuff which i need to move to the hostel. They left at 5 am, i packed till 6 am, my bus is at 8.30am...i did not sleep at all for the whole night...that' is record breaking mann....

So i had my breakfast at 7 something in the morning and then i'm off to board the bus to KL. Slept through the whole journey, only 3 hours of sleep i had. Then finally i reach KL in the afternoon, just in time to meet bei for lunch. Today is the party night in her place! Yayyyy! I'm still amazed at how i can stay awake without sleeping..ahhahaa

To me, this only happens once a year...To hell with it! hahhaha...Moments are forever and will never return to the same spot :D

Chinese New Year

Life have never seem greater this time around. I am out all day till i could not even remember which day i'm in, whether it is night or day, what time am i suppose to sleep? It was just loads of fun during the new year. For the past 2 months, all i see everyday is my four walls, looking out of my car window and my piano keys. Finally, i am interacting with humans again :) All my friends are back in town. Taiping can be a ghostly town for me when there is nobody around. I felt as if i have just isolated myself from the world.

So my life begins to have some colours on the 7th of February, my old pals are all back from everywhere except for Su Ann, Joy and Wyn Nee, which are currently abroad. The part has already began even before the lunar new year begins. The 30th night of the lunar calendar, there were a big gathering with everybody. The list include, wan, geraldine, Theng, neet, jee, ling, vonnie, wan kong, Justin, chang jeh and a couple more. They came over my place to gamble in fact, however we just ended up chatting away and then we went over to lot 10 or A. rahman to yam cha. Ah, can't remember which place i ended up in. For4 consecutive days i have been like rotating between both mamak shops. The rest of the chinese coffee shops are closed on chinese new year day usually. This is where we will bump into ppl which you have never seen for ages, this includes old school mates.

Then, on the next day, they crash over my place for the night. In fact, it was a spontaneous plan. We were like playing Truth or Dare till like 8 am the next day? I think we started at about 1 something in the morning after our 'yam cha' session. It all begins from our mamak session in Lot10, we were feeling a bit crack i think. We started to come out with funny dares to be done by everyone in the mamak place (packed with people). I volunteered to be the 'chicken of the year 2005'. I just hate doing dare stuff..ahahah, but i enjoy being a spectator. So, the first dare was that Frances have to move one of the flower pots from one spot to another spot, Justin have to sit like in the middle of nowhere, beside the longkang and wave at us, Wan Kong and his kissing the pole stunts, Von and her butt shaking in front of the verandah and so onn for Neet and wannie. Ahh....i seriously have no guts for those stunts...ahaha. However, they finally succeeded to dare me to do something. I think i dared myself more like it, coz i refuse everything they said. (what u expect from chicken of the year). So, i had like 5 puff from a cigarette. Sampoerna menthol if i'm not wrong. It tasted sweet at first, then the mint taste comes in and then i hate the taste after that. Ahh....so much for the experience...yucky :P

This leads on to the TOD session later in the night. On the second day, things were much more peaceful. I had my wonderful sleep till like 1 in the afternnon. Dizzy and disorientated from the lack of sleep. We did not do much for the night, just yam cha and then they just chilled in my house till 2 am. Served them Vodka and lime. Neet's little 9 year old sister was admitted to the hospital because her feet got trapped behind the motorcycle wheels. Ouchh! HOpe she will be well again soon.

It's Februaryy!

How time flies! I can't believe my eyes...In less than a week i have to decide or rather my teacher have to decide whether i am fit to take the piano exams this May/June. Some pieces are still not up to the standard yet, still a bit stress on it. I will work hard towards it no matter what. PRactice with ears and brains, not with duration! that's what my teacher says...

My mum is busy baking cookies and prepariong for Chinese New Year, it's just six days a week! I'm rather excited this time, all my friends are coming back, except for su :( This is the time each year where we get to meet up with everyone and bump into people which you haven't seen for ages. It's really strange that after high school, all your school mates just disappeared without a trace. Only those, which you hang out the most, you get to see most often.

Today, i feel lethargic. It's just weird that my body felt so not energetic and weak. Bones aching too, i can't even sit in front of the piano for long. So i have to take a break tonight....Maybe it's the rain...

Signing off now...